I just nodded…
To be polite you know.
And maybe I wasn’t really taking the time to think about your statement and whether or not I truly agreed.
Maybe I thought I agreed, because it sounded smart or inspired even, but then on further reflection, it just didn’t assimilate well with what I already believe.
Maybe it just wasn’t the time nor place for further and more meaningful conversation.
These moments bring heightened awareness to what I believe and why. Considering a contrasting opinion does that in a most valuable way.
Here is an example. A friend told me that she doesn’t share (with a new person she meets) that she is married or has children. She says this is because “her relationships do not define her”. It sounded so confident and full of self assurance, independence and wholeness of individuality that I decided to try it on for size.
It didn’t fit.
I am most accurately defined by my relationships. I am a wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend, a redeemed child of God. In these relationships I learn about myself and am able to express my individuality. By contrasting my feelings, thoughts and actions with the people I am in relationship with, I see more clearly how I am unique. Embracing who I really am gives me freedom to be authentic, not seek to be something all together different. Without my relationships, certainly I can define my personality and abilities, my passions and choices; but only in the context of relationships do those things have meaning.
This has made me perhaps more mindful of my relationships, more deliberate about them and certainly, more grateful for them. They reveal me, shape me, reprimand me. And without them, I’m not sure I could tell you just who I am.
i love lots of thing about this post, including how you just started in one the writing. like you caught the thought mid-air. beautiful. i love too that you tried something on and saw it didn't fit. that's beautiful. and i love the love you share with everyone in relationship with you. i learn from you what devotion to others looks like. and that is probably the most beautiful thing of all. love you oodles older sister. :)
ReplyDeleteI like your thinking. To say one is not defined by relationships is halfway to saying the relationships are external and could be cast off at any time or whim.
ReplyDeleteBut the reality is that I depend on those relationships, especially the ones like husband, father, and Opa. The are important to my core, and I like to think that to some I am important to them.
Sure, some relationships can and should be temporary and they don't define us, they just reflect our choices of the moment and like a sweater, they can feel nice in the cold, but uncomfortable on a hot sunny day.
So somethings we change, and others we keep. I like the illustration about commitment that shows breakfast of bacon and eggs. The caption reads - the chicken was involved, the pig was committed. For my family, I am more like a pig than a chicken.
I love you sweetheart, and am so proud of you and all you do for your family.
Love,
Dad